Glenda

The other night I had a dream that we had to bring Katie to the ER because of a cut on her hand that was infected and not healing.  For some reason, Ryun and Julia came along.  While we were there, we ran in to the nurse who in "real life" was the nurse we had for all three kids when when they were born.  Ryun and I referred to her as "robo nurse" because though she was very kind and warm, she was also very to the point, and acted somewhat like a robot doing every thing she needed to do.  I loved her and she was the perfect nurse to get me to "attend to the task at hand."  Her name was Glenda.

In the dream she had switched from working with mothers and babies to the ER.  Before she walked in to the room, the air was very tense and I was wondering if they were going to be able to fix Katie's hand.  In the dream, I kept looking at the hand off and on consistently, with a constant stream of negative thoughts about what was about to happen and would could happen if the doctors could not help her,  I remember waking up after the dream wondering why I was so worked up about about her hand,  It was a tiny scratch with a slightly red tinge around it which in reality would never be something I would bring Katie to the ER for.  When Glenda walked in, before she even spoke, this immediate sense of peace, and "everything will be ok" calm came over me.  As she took a look at her hand, and in her matter of fact way assured us she would be fine, the negative thoughts stopped and I felt like everything would be good and Katie would be alright.  We then officially introduced Katie and Julia to her as two kids she had helped bring in to the world and had the typical, "Wow, I can't believe how grown up they have gotten" conversation that always seems to come up when someone has not seen the kids in years (in her case since a day or two after they were born).   The dream ended at that point.

The strongest thing that stood out to me in this dream was the big deal I was making about Katie's hand, which was really nothing more than a scratch.  The feeling of anxiety and stress was intense.  In reality, this past couple of years have not been the easiest for Katie, and by extension, me...nothing earth shattering or life changing...just every day things perhaps magnified by strong emotions from both of us.  Somehow I feel like the small cut on her hand which was not worthy of such an intense reaction from myself was a symbol to put me back in check...not make a mountain out of a molehill so to speak.  The fact that it was Katie's hand was even more telling...to me it symbolized that she may need a little "helping hand" right now, but that she will "heal and be ok."

As for Glenda's part in all of this (someone who I have not thought of in years) the only thing I can come up with is that the name Glenda means fair, good and holy,  Maybe she was representing an angelic, heavenly type figure who was there to reassure.  Maybe it was her real life connection with Katie's start in life showing us that she has "made it through" everything else along the way up to this point, and we will make it through this too.

I love when my dreams reflect my waking life and provide guidance for how to move forward.

Head Games

I wish I didn't put so much stock in my dreams but as silly as this may sound to some, it is very rare (like almost non-existent) that I have a dream that doesn't have some underlying meaning.  My dreams almost always have very specific symbols in them...usually animals.  

Over the past few years in particular, I have grown quite good at interpreting meanings, without the aid of  book or website.  I am able to make pretty decent connections between my dreams and real life, and how they may relate.  Usually, even if in some round about way, they do.

So I am trying not to be too concerned about a couple of recent dreams involving my head.  The first one was about a bug biting my head that would not let go.  I think it was a tick but that was not 100% clear.  It didn't hurt; it was more of a nuisance.  No matter what I tried, or whose help I employed, we could not get it off of  my head.  When I woke up, the immediate thought I had was that something had been trying to "infiltrate" my head to...well, to take over.  It was unsettling to say the least. 

The second dream involved me putting an exorbitant amount of cover up (makeup) on my face...before going to bed at night.  In my dream, I was getting ready and after putting the cover up on I was thinking to myself it was silly to put it on before bed. However, when I thought it would make sense to wash it off, I decided against it because the results of doing so could be bad, very bad.  The obvious interpretation upon waking was that I was trying to hide or cover something up about myself.  Also very unsettling.

Needless to say, I will be paying a bit closer attention in my waking life to my feelings, thoughts and any notion of being "infiltrated" or over-powered.  And is it weird that I totally want to call my PCP (which I need to do anyway to schedule a physical...UGH) and ask for an MRI of my head?  Seriously. 

Donuts?

I have symbolic dreams all the time and I love to look up their meaning.  Most of the time the symbol in the dream is glaringly obvious...sometimes it is something that doesn't seem to belong or is out of place, sometimes is it just such a strange thing to dream about, and sometimes whatever symbol it is flows with the dream perfectly and is a key piece in the dream.  I have never once had a dream in which the symbol was not relevant in some way to my waking life.  

Last night, I had a dream that otherwise was not significant but quickly flashed to a table with an assortment of donuts on it.  I knew the donuts were a symbol, and I was right.   It still surprises me, though it happens all of the time when a dream matches up perfectly with my waking life. 

"To see a doughnut in your dream represents the Self. It suggests that you may be feeling lost and still trying to find yourself and your purpose in life. Alternatively, it refers to growth, development and nurturing. You are not yet completely whole."

Dream

Last night I had a dream in which the main symbol was a desk.  That was pretty much the only relevant part of the dream but here is what it means to see a desk in a dream:  To see or sit at your desk in your dream suggests that you are evaluating and weighing your problems. It is indicative of self-exploration and discovery.

Interesting. 

Say What?

Last night was one of those nights.  I couldn't shut my mind off, couldn't get comfortable and probably slept for a total of two hours.  These nights are a blessing in disguise.  Sleeping wise, they are awful but these nights always coincide with my most telling dreams.  Last night was no different.

  The dream started with Ryun and I talking in the kitchen.  I was telling him about the weird headache I had.  It was  almost like it was behind my ear but not like an ear infection.   It was intense pressure and almost felt like something was lodged in my head.  He didn't have any idea what it could be.  As we were talking, clear liquid, with the consistency of Vaseline starting pouring from my ear.  By pouring I mean a faucet on full blast.  I was sitting there, perfectly calmly, catching it in my hand as if this happened everyday.  The more that came out, the better my head felt.

I am getting pretty good at interpreting my dreams with out having to look them up.  I knew the minute I woke that this dream was symbolic in the sense that the ear fluid that was draining at impressive speed was indicative of all of the negative thoughts leaving, making room for the the positive to come in.  When my ear was full and the pressure in my head was intense it was preventing me from hearing something...the something being the positive thoughts and "I am" statements.

I love when my dreams "talk to me."  It happens frequently and is I think the time that I am most in tune with myself.

Dream

I was at my parents house visiting.  A large picture frame fell of the wall and smashed to the ground.  After we were done cleaning up, I was sitting down at the kitchen table and looked down at my arm, which had a yellow snake basically attached to it, biting me.  I looked down, and was like, "Huh" and then proceeded to pull the snake off of my arm like it was no big deal.  Afterward my arm immediately swelled up and looked bruised.  We were all standing around, looking at my arm almost in awe but not in a scared or concerned type of way.

A yellow snake in a dream could represent the intellect and how you’re using it to sort through tricky situations. wisdom. Another meaning associated with yellow snakes in dreams is about your intuition, your inner light or guidance, opening to new insight and awareness. Yellow represents the color of the light of the spirit, of consciousness shining through. Dreaming of a yellow snake may be a call to step forward and use your intellect to resolve the a situation or issues in your waking life.

My interpretation:  Being bitten by a yellow snake but not being scared or worried about it, more in awe and amazement than anything else:  Wake up Sharon.  Listen to your intuition, trust in it and be open and aware.

To dream of a picture frame means you dread change. 

My interpretation: In my dream the frame was crashing to the ground.  It's pretty clear to me that the dream was telling me to smash my fear of change.  Don't stay the path just because it is comfortable.

Dreams

I know I say it all of the time...maybe even too much but, I am continually amazed by how true to real life my dreams are.  Generally speaking (though admittedly this is a work-in-progress) I don't consider myself to be a deeply spiritual person.  I want to be; I just don't think I am there yet.  One of  the (maybe the only) times I really feel connected to my spirit is in my dreams.  It is such a deep connection that I struggle to even define it.   It continues to amaze me. 

The most recent example of this connectedness occurred last night.  In my dream, I was running up multiple sets of stairs.  The stairs were very dimly lit and the surroundings were dark. Everything about the setting I was in seemed dark and dreary and had almost an unsafe feeling to it.  In the dream, it was known that if I made it to the top of the stairs, the sunlight would break through and it would be worth all of the hard work to run up the stairs and through the dark dreary conditions.  Someone was constantly behind me telling me not to quit, despite my wanting to several times.  At one of the landings before the next set of stairs my cat, Joey was there.  He was meowing and looking for attention.  The person coaxing me along urged me to pet Joey quickly and then move a long, up the next flight and the next until the sunlight showered over me.  Joey would be fine.  Throughout the dream, I was out of breath, and not entirely sure the end result would be worth the effort it took to get there.

I looked up the three main symbols in the dream; the stairs, the cat and the darkness.  To dream you are climbing a set of stairs means your are trying to reach a higher level of understanding.  You are making progress in your spiritual and emotional journey.  A cat symbolizes an independent spirit, creativity and power.  My own interpretation of seeing Joey there and having the person with me tell me to tend to Joey but keep moving along was a reminder that I need to remember to take care of me...obviously not neglect those who count on me but not to forget or neglect myself in the process.  The darkness was easy enough to interpret...instability, not being able to see a clear, full picture etc.  To dream of sunlight breaking through the darkness means you will overcome your failures. 

The whole dream was very telling but the biggest realization came hours later, after having given this dream some thought.  The biggest symbol in the dream wasn't the stairs, the cat or the darkness.  It was the person coaxing me along, encouraging me and telling me it would all be worth it in the end...because I realized that person was not some random being.  That person was me...or more accurately that "voice in my head" that tells me to keep going, keep moving forward and not to give up. 

Powerful.

Attics, Birds, Doors and Flowers

Last night I had a dream that Ryun and I were looking at the front door of our house, trying to figure out why there were pink flowers growing from the top of the door and why, when it was opened we could see directly through the ceiling to the attic where there were birds nesting and chirping away.


Um...yeah.  People probably think my dreams are weird.  Personally I think they are always symbolic of something and what would be weird is if I ever had a normal, run of the mill dream that had no clearly defined meaning.


I have become so good at analyzing my dreams without the aid of a dream dictionary that it is almost scary.  I knew this dream would have something to do with letting go, love, happiness and self discovery.  When I referred to the dream dictionary here is what I found:


To dream of chirping and/or flying birds, represents joy, harmony, ecstasy, balance, and love. It denotes a sunny outlook in life. You are experiencing spiritual freedom and psychological liberation.

A door that opens into the inside, denotes your desire for inner exploration and self-discovery.

An attic symbolizes your mind, spirituality, and your connection to the higher Self.

To see colorful flowers in your dream, signify kindness, compassion, gentleness, pleasure, beauty, and gain. It is also symbolic of perfection and spirituality. Your dream may be an expression of love, joy and happiness. Alternatively, flowers in dream, especially if they are blooming, represent your hidden potential and latent talents.

 Pink represents love, joy, sweetness, happiness, affection and kindness.

Looks like my interpretation was right on.

Money and Green Beans

How are the two related? Why in one of my dreams of course. This is the first dream in a very long time that actually translates in to something good...so a big yay for that!

The dream was of me going to a farm and buying, for a very large sum of money, fresh green beans. The amount purchased was the equivalent of maybe three regular sized cans. The amount of money I paid for that quantity? $78.38. The man who sold them to me was a very elderly, wise sort of man. The impression was that he was very knowledgeable about many things. I have looked up the meaning of every key part of this dream; the money, the numbers, the farm, the old man, the color green and the beans.

To see or win money in your dream, indicates that success and prosperity is within your reach.

To see or eat beans in your dream, signifies your connection to your roots and to humanity. Consider what binds you to your community. Alternatively, beans are symbolic of the soul and of immortality. They also relate to fertility.

Green signifies a positive change, good health, growth, fertility, healing, hope, vigor, vitality, peace, and serenity. Green is also symbolic of your strive to gain recognition and establish your independence.

To see an old man in your dream, represents wisdom or forgiveness.

To see or live on a farm in your dream, suggests that you are ready for growth.

Seven signifies mental perfection, healing, completion, music and attainment of high spirituality.

Eight stands for power of authority, success, karma, material gains, regeneration, and wealth. When the number eight appears in your dream, trust your instincts and intuition.

Three signifies life, vitality, inner strength, completion, imagination, creativity, energy, and self-exploration.


If the symbols in this dream are at all indicative of real life, virtually every dream or feeling I have ever had or wanted for myself will have come to fruition. Anyone who knows me is aware already of how strongly I feel dreams reflect one's waking life. Here's to hoping in this specific case, my beliefs are right on.

Dream Interpretation

As mentioned on Facebook, I had a dream last night that involved an earthquake (2 actually), Styrofoam, crayons and magnets. It went like this...

I was living with my family in some sort of small town...the kind were everyone knows each other. We were all intensely close and it sort of had the feeling of some hippie commune type thing. Anyway, one day there was an earthquake. The earthquake was caused by some sort of magnetic field/magnet and Styrofoam. While it was known that these two things were the cause of the earthquake, their exact involvement was unclear. After the earthquake there were many odd, unexplained things that had happened as a result but no one could figure out how to fix/explain things. Life went on and a few years later there was another earthquake, again caused by magnets and Styrofoam. This time my kids figured out that if they colored the Styrofoam with crayons, it would lessen the intensity of the earthquake as well as lessen the weird, unexplained after effects of the quake. The dream ended in a bedroom that was clearly meant to be my kids, with them coloring in their backboards on the bed (which were made of Styrofoam).

Ok , so my first thought upon waking was that I was channeling LOST with weird magnetic field things going on. I knew for sure that Styrofoam and magnets would be in the dream dictionary because people just don't dream about those two things without them clearly meaning something, in a symbolic kind of way. Here is what I found:

To dream of an earthquake means that you are experiencing a major shake up that is threatening your stability or foundation.

To see crayons in your dreams may mean you need to think outside the lines and do things in a more unconventional way.

To dream of magnets means that negative forces are drawing you toward a path of ruin.

To see Stryofoam in your dream means that you are undergoing some form of transition in your life.

I of course have my own interpretations of what this all means. Some of it though, I am still trying to figure out. I will be sure to update here when I do!

All I Have To Do Is Dream

I am a big believer that my dreams, especially vivid ones with strong symbols are one of the most defining ways my body and mind "communicate" with me. My dreams are very telling sometimes, and occasionally even psychic in that I will dream something before it (or something very similar) occurs. I have had two recent dreams that spoke to my waking life in clear and concise ways.

The first was a dream that I was in an auditorium watching a performance, in which I was slated to go on stage during the 3rd act. There was a brief intermission between the 2nd and 3rd acts and I had to leave the auditorium during the time. I was walking the halls nervous that I was going to miss my performance and was reassuring myself that if I missed my cue, it wouldn't be the end of the world and maybe just maybe I was supposed to miss it. The biggest symbol of this dream was the stage and my not being present on it. When I looked up the meaning behind dreaming of a stage, the dictionary said that to dream of yourself on stage means that you are putting on an act and not being true to yourself. One of my biggest goals this year is to "remember me." I am determined to take better care of myself. In short, I am putting myself back on my to do list. This dream was very clearly telling me (by my not being present on the stage) that it is time to be true to myself.

The second dream was of me literally pulling the roots of a tree right out of the ground. I knew the meaning of this before I even looked. Clearly, it is time to "uproot" my life. Rearrange, reassess and remember that I need to take care of me.

On that note? I am going to go set up my profile on Wii Fit and check out the Biggest Loser Wii game!

Ugh

The other night? I had a dream that it was raining glass. We (my immediate and extended family) were at my parents house. We were all outside at the pool, on a beautifully sunny day, that changed suddenly and without warning. It was immediately dark and stormy. At first, it was small slivers of glass falling and we were not sure what it was. Suddenly we heard the motor of a plane that sounded like it was in trouble. We looked up at the tree tops and indeed saw a plane that was coming spiraling down. At that point, we realized it was glass falling from the sky and we ran in to the house and found the hallways and floors of the house were also covered in glass. For some reason, Julia was the only one without shoes on. We were all searching frantically for her shoes so that she wouldn't step on the shattered glass and cut her feet. It was me who realized that they were outside in the middle of the front yard. I told everyone that I had,to get them and that I didn't think it was dangerous for me to do so. The need to get her sneakers was very high, almost dire in nature, even though I knew that she cold have been held, or sat down in a chair. I went outside, feeling calmer than I should have been (or, in reality would have been if this was "real life"). The last clear image from the dream is of me, standing on the front stairs, looking down the hill of the front yard at her shoes. The shoes, despite it being dark and stormy, were standing out, practically glowing.

This was one of the most unsettling dreams I have ever had. I have looked up the most of the clear and obvious images from this dream and included them here.



To see broken glass in your dream, signifies a change in your life. Alternatively, it could be symbolic of an aspect of your life that is in pieces. You will find that a situation will come to an abrupt and untimely end. If you are walking on broken glass, then it suggests that you will be experiencing some heartache or pain.

To dream that a plane crashes, suggests that you have set overly high and unrealistic goals for yourself. Your goals may be too high and are impossible to realize. You are in danger of having it come crashing down. Alternatively, your lack of confidence, self-defeating attitude and self-doubt toward the goals you have set for yourself is represented by the crashing airplane; you do not believe in your ability to attain those goals. Loss of power and uncertainty in achieving your goals are also signified.

To hear the tapping of the rain on the roof, denotes spiritual ideas and blessings coming to mind. It may also suggests that you will receive much joy from your home life.

To see or wear sneakers in your dream, suggests that you are approaching through life with ease and little obstacles.

A couple of things strike me. Clearly the reason Julia had to have her sneakers, despite there being other options, is because I am concerned with the upcoming "obstacles" in her life...in particular, kindergarten. The sneakers represent ease and little obstacles, which is exactly what I am hoping for her. My willingness to go out in to a storm of raining glass is indicative how far I will go to make sure I am doing everything I can for her.

I am still trying to figure out the glass part. I don't quite feel like my life is in pieces, although there are some parts that could use, um, a little assembly. I am certainly hoping I am not going to be experiencing any heartache or pain any time soon.

I have made it perfectly clear here on a number of occasions that my self confidence is practically nil. Uncertainty? Self defeating thoughts? Yup, got those. The airplane imagery is as clear as day.

Now Entering The Twilight Zone

These paragraphs might seem disjointed and unconnected but as you will see at the end, they are not.

Last night, on the way home from errands, I decided on a whim to stop in at the Dollar Tree to get a couple of things. While there I ran in to my 4th grade math teacher! We chatted for a few minutes and then continued shopping.

This morning, while shopping at Shaws, I ran in to my elementary school art teacher.

Last night I had a dream that I was a cast member on LOST, except the cast, rather than the "real life" cast consisted of all people I knew. One of them was a boy I graduated high school with (someone that I was not friendly with at all (for no reason other than we ran in different circles). Anyway, I was trying desperately to remember his last name in the dream, and when I woke, I still couldn't remember it.

Today, on a another whim, I decided to run over to my parents house when Julia was at school and look for some old photos that Emily needs for a school project. While looking through photo albums, I came across the program for my high school graduation exercises, and there his name was, listed as the class Vice President. It was strange how that worked out, as if it was meant to happen or something.

As I continued looking through the albums, I found a picture of me with this boy that I had a major crush on when I was in 8th grade (ish) which is when the picture I saw was taken. I was wondering what I ever saw in him and was laughing at myself.

Today, while shopping in Shaws, I saw that boys father.

So I have no idea what to make of all this but here is what I am thinking.

1. Am I looking to travel back in time?

2. Are the powers that be trying to tell me something about Carver? Like should I move back there or something?

3. Am I being reminded of my youth for some reason? Maybe to remind me to always stay "young at heart?"

How seriously...

...do you take your dreams? Do you believe that some dreams are a direct reflection of what's going on in your life or what's to come? Or, do you believe that dreams are random, with no meaning or symbolism behind them at all?

I strongly believe that dreams are a influential indicator of what is going on in my life. I dream, or I should say remember my dreams constantly. It's not often that I have a dream that doesn't have some huge, symbolic meaning. I can honestly tell you that my dreams are one major way of my determining how I feel in my waking life. Dreams that involve teeth, cats, and rape (not all at once mind you) are in most cases directly related to how I am feeling (powerless, violated, anxious etc). Dreams that involve clear, calm water, dolphins, and deer (again, not all at once) mean that I am feeling, in touch with my spiritual self, peaceful and calm. Of course, some dreams are directly related to specific real life situations (for example last night, when I had a dream that involved my sister reeling in pain, rolling around on the floor, after hearing that in real life, she had just spent the day in the ER with what appears to be gallbladder issues).

Lately, my dreams have been very conflicting, not the dreams themselves but conflicting with each other. A few weeks ago, I had a dream that I was raped. While I didn't actually see it happen, it was clear in my dream that it had. I woke up crying, unsure of why at first, and then the dream slowly came back. The next night I had a dream I was swimming in clear and calm water with dolphins. A few nights later, I had a dream that my teeth were crumbling and falling from my mouth. Not too long after that, I had a dream that I was in the woods, watching a deer eat. I have become so good at analyzing my own dreams that I almost don't even need to look them up any more. Alarming as the recent dreams may seem to some, for me, it actually couldn't have been any more connected to my waking life, and really, rather than being alarming, they have been more "realization-like" then anything.

Anyway, how do you feel about dreams?

Stuff

So last night, I had a dream that there was a live fish (with lots of teeth) in my sink, a tree, yes, a tree growing through my house with a bleepin' opossum hanging from it, and that I was in jail for a crime which was not clearly defined. Yeah, I know I am crazy, but just because I am me, I had to look up the meaning.

Fish: can symbolize a slippery or elusive situation.

Rats (which was the closest thing I could find to an opposum): shows feelings of doubt and guilt.

Trees: can symbolize feeling trapped, or in an awkward situation.

Jail: can symbolize feeling trapped and restricted.

Ok so obviously I...

A. need to get out more.

B. need to stop stressing about stupid shit that I have no control over.

C. need to be "ok" with the fact that, dammit, I just can't do it all.

I used to have crazy dreams like this all of the time. I guess I should be thankful that they are far and few between now. It still though, after all this time, freaks me out how "true to life" some dreams (or at least their meanings)really are.

No, I Am Not Nervous About This, Why Do You Ask?

Today is Emily's Special Education/IEP meeting at school.

Last night, I had a dream that the Burkland School caught fire. A group of students, without the permission of the school personnel decided to attempt an after hours science experiment and broke in to the school. Something went wrong and the school caught on fire. No one was hurt, but a full scale investigation was underway, and it turned out Emily was one of the students involved. She had a part in providing the paste (yes school paste) for the experiment and the principal was all over me for not inquiring with Emily about why she needed the paste. I remember thinking in my dream that the guy was insane because who would question a kid about having one tube of paste (apparently that was all that was needed)?

Yeah, I know. I love it though, when dreams are so easily interpreted. When I woke up this morning and remembered the dream, I knew immediately the reason behind it was nerves about the meeting today.

I Hate/Love When This Happens

The other night I had a dream that I wss sitting in a doctor's office with my sister Suzanne and nephew Jack. Jack was laughing with his mouth wide open and I said to my sister, "Oh...he has phlegm in his mouth. Oops, never mind, he swallowed it."

The next day, while talking to my sister on the phone(before I even mentioned the dream to her and actually it was what she said that even made me remember my dream)she said, "I took Jack to the doctor's this morning. He has a cold. His cough is horrible, but he's coughing phlegm up so that's a good sign."

Freaky...and very cool at the same time. It's scary how regularly things of that nature happen to me.

Incidently, the poor thing is still fighting it off. : (

The Dream

I looked up literally every thing I remember from the dream...Right down to the color of the truck and the scared feeling I experienced during and after.

Here's the rundown:

Cars: dreaming about driving a car indicates that your lifestyle, beliefs, and goals are in conflict with another's. Nearly escaping the impact of an accident means that you will successfully overcome any rivalry.

Violence: Having a violent dream indicates unexpressed anger or needing more discipline in your life.

Pens: Dreaming of a pen indicates your need for self expression and communication.

Trucks: Dreaming of a truck indicates that you are overworked and taking on too many tasks and responsibilities.

Convenience Store (which I could see in the dream): Dreaming of a convenience or grocery store indicates that you are emotionally or mentally strained.

Woman: Dreaming of a woman shows your own female aspects or those of your mother. It can also indicate feelings of temptation or guilt.

Dusk (which was what time of day the dream appeared to take place): This indicates defeated hopes or a dark, gloomy outlook on future endeavors.

Scared: Feeling scared in a dream expresses self-doubt and incompetence.

Silver (the color of the truck): Seeing silver in a dream indicates the feminine aspects of oneself and your intuition.

My interpretation in three words: I'm fucked up.

Scary

Early this morning, while I was trying to go back to sleep after waking up with Julia, I had the strangest/scariest thing happen.

I closed my eyes, and was drifting off in to that weird place when you are sort of awake but sort of asleep and I had this flash of a dream, that literally caused me to be paralyzed with fear.

I was driving down a familiar road (for those who know the area, it was right on Forest Street in Carver, just before it meets up with Rte 58). I was just about to round the corner, heading toward the convenience store, when a huge truck (sort of looked like a cargo type of thing) cut me off coming from the other side of the road, across in front of my car. "What the hell", I said. Then, a woman who looked eerily familiar to me, jumped out of the cab, opened the door of my car, pulled my head back by my hair, and shoved what looked like a black pen down my throat.

So I woke with a start, and realized that I couldn't move, literally. I thought, "Oh my God, I can't move." As soon as the thought was complete sensation returned and I was fine.

But dude, scary shit huh?

You can rest assured that I will be looking the meaning of this up just as soon as I gather the courage.

Oh, and I will not be driving down that stretch of road any time soon.

Translation

All of my dreams usually mean bad things (misfortune, bad luck, health in jeopardy etc). For once, I have had two dreams that actually mean something good.

The first one involved Ryun, my sisters, and I taking the kids to an indoor beach (whatever that is). I was in the water about waste high, taking pics of the Emily and Katherine splashing and playing in front of me...maybe about 20 ft away or so. Out of nowhere, the water began to rise rapidly and it was up to my neck. I was looking for the kids but there were a ton of people and I couldn't see them. I started motioning to my sister to help me, all the time, holding my camera in the air so it wouldn't get wet (as if I wouldn't drop my camera and swim immediately to the kids ...but this is a dream and not real life so what can you do?). I started to see the kids, who were struggling to keep above the water, not exactly drowning but definitely in trouble. As I got closer, Katherine went under completely. When I finally made my way to them, the water had started to go down and they were fine.

Here's my interpetation of that: The things that are going on with them(seizures, blood sugar, etc) are beyond my control (hence the drowning and my inability to stop it). I am getting too deeply involved and worrying too much. The part where they were ok: in real life, they will be ok. The water rising and subsiding: all hell is breaking loose now but it will get better.

The next dream involved a bridge. In past dreams (one that is recurring) I have dreamed of being on a bridge that was not finished...and plunging off of the end in to the water. This dream was so much better!

I was standing just before the bridge. there was a sign that said, "If you have never been on this bridge, please go here first( and it had an arrow pointing to a sectioned off part of the bridge in which there were people milling about looking very confused, sad and bewildered). The other part of the bridge showed people and cars zooming by, without any hesitation or reservation. I stood there for a very long time (having never been on the bridge) contemplating which side to go on. I was very torn over this decision. In the end, after much struggle I ended up choosing the side with the cars and people flying by.

Interpretation: For some, going over the bridge might seem like a reckless decision. For my though it symbolized something completely different: My life is taking a new and healthier path. No more sad Sharon...no more indecisive Sharon. Let's meet life's challenges head on and with gusto. Cross over the bridge to the other side..where no doubt better times are waiting.